Grayell laughed. He took another step and then stopped for a second. His free hand squeezed her now bare midriff gentle. He breathed long and steady, took a deep breath and felt somewhat invigorate by the night air. He looked up, gazing at the moon for the space of a couple of breaths.
You know, it's beautiful. Mesmerizing in fact. Entirely worth the effort.
He then looked back to her and shot her a wink, saying nothing more. Onward.
Well that was daring, she thought. Serenity wasn't really expecting that in this situation, and an old reflex kicked in as with her free hand slapped Grayell's chest.
Realizing what she just did she gasped, "I'm so sorry, that..no wait I shouldn't apologize!" she slapped his chest again, not so hard of course and not with the intent of hurting him.
She shook her head, remembering when James would tease as such no matter how many times she said she hated it.
Though he does remind me of him a little, perhaps that's why...
A memory, unexpected as they usually are, hovered into her mind's eye and she recalled one late afternoon under a lone tree upon a hill. She and James laughed with each other, basking in the setting sun just outside her manor.
"So tell me, which is it?" "Well I certainly won't tell you my lady, lest the inflation of your ego burst through your already gracious chest!"
She slapped his chest, hard, with the intent of inflicting pain. She hated those jokes.
"Stop that! You know I hate it when you make jokes at me like that." "Its a compliment my lady! Why would I shower you with cruelty and lies? I'm a gentleman and not a 'street rat' as your father calls me."
A younger Serenity frowned, thinking of what her father sees in James. She leaned closer, her chest nearly pressing against him, and showed the best puppy dog eyes she could.
"Please? Which is your favorite?"
The young man couldn't help but smile, shaking his head a little before leaning over to kiss her.
"The one you sang at the premier last week, your Song to The Moon."
Grayell tuned and sat on a rock. He leaned on his good leg and smiled wide. His eyes locked on her at the mention.
Aye. I know that your gift would take this pain from me.
He cleared his throat.
That is to say... I could use a rest. I am weary but indeed, your song would give me the resolve to carry on Serenity. You have my fullest attention.
Damn. That was almost too forward as well. Wracked with pain and hobbling home and yet she fluttered in his head. Insanity he though, she was WITH him in body... but he knew full well now that he was indeed smitten with her.
Grayell would of course listen. He would listen to her any time, on any matter, for as long as she demanded. This woman held sway over his thoughts too quickly and he knew that his heart was beating for her.
But... he would fix that. He was determined to. He had many things that he needed to focus on and whilst he would not neglect her, he would not be more than a friend. A dear friend if she would allow it.
He told himself he was not good enough for her and it was easy for he believed it to be true. He told himself the chemistry he felt were naught but the emotional stirrings of an old sentimental bastard, too long removed from other folk. He told himself that she would not have him, that were he to pursue such a matter that she would scorn him....
A hopeful, brilliantly shining part of him softened, fluttered and was snuffed out, as something in him tore.
The scars he bore were earned. Deserved. Reminders. Medals. But the greatest pain Grayell could know was the pain that he forced upon himself, that he resolutely endured with such downright arrogant, stubborn persistence that it made mockery of his scars. The landscape of his mind was a torn, arid place; pockmarked by the warfare of endless emotional torture.
Yes he would listen. Her words were the one respite he would allow himself. He knew too, that in her absence; he would not rest easy. It mattered little.... or at least he was determined to believe as much.
Smiling, she stood a little back away from him and his seat. Taking a calm breath, the winds gathered around her to sing once more.
The leaves rustled, the grass whistled, and the cool kiss of the wind washed over Grayell.
This was his favorite, maybe it will be Grayell's as well...
On the hard wood stage she stood, the pianist at the ready waiting for her signal. The raven haired star looked back at him and bowed her head, indicating that she was ready, then the introduction began.
From far away, having sneaked into the theater was a young man, smiling down at her from a box seat, his full attention given to her music as the things it enveloped him with.
She was a princess, a woman dawned with a cape of the moon who sang to her goddess. White as now, with a voice that rang silver in the ears of the undeserved. A gift upon the earth, she was.
It would seem like hours before they got back, Serenity dragging back Grayell as fast as she could. When they reached the edge of the town she carried him over to a nearby bench so he could rest a bit before the final stretch.
Grayell grunted as he got off his feet this last time. He was smiling though, it was odd how struggling through pain and adversity somehow brought a feeling of accomplishment. He had said nothing as they walked, his words were stolen from him. He did not know the words to the song. He didn't understand a single damn word of it.
But the sound, the lure of her voice so washed over and through him that it captivated his mind, his soul and his heart. He wouldn't tell her he didn't know what it meant. He was uncultured, unschooled. All he knew is what it made him feel. But that had changed.
Rather than her voice tugging at the strings in his gut, it now took residence and welled in his heart. It felt like a part of him, but more than that - much more than that... it was an affirmation. Grayell could now identify this sensation, this feeling. It had plagued him since he first heard her sing and whilst this was only the third song he was gifted with... it somehow forced him to acknowledge feelings for the woman. First sight? Perhaps. Destiny was a funny old bugger.
He smiled though, not because he thought that they were falling for one another. He smiled, because he was determined to not have it be so. He smiled because he was resolute to protect her, imperiled as she was. He knew he was a fool all the same, were there no threat on her life he would most likely have insisted that somehow, somewhere; she were indeed a precious treasure that needed to be guarded by his old, useless and beaten ass. He smiled because she gave him reason.
She gave him hope. Faith. She stripped his world of complications, of thoughts that gnawed at his psyche and instead, drove them from him. She gave him sweet dreams. Aye, he would be restless all the same, the larger part of him would want her in his home, by his fire, sharing his bed and chatting over breakfast.... but he would treasure friendship. He smiled because as a friend, he would not fear losing her.
So many thoughts in the mind of a man so simple, so base in his wants and desires.
He lifted his head to look at her and again, smiled. His cheeks would ache before long, he was not accustomed to the gesture.
Serenity?
I am going to ask you to forgive me for what I am going to say. I ask that you take me on my word and know that I am an honorable man, someone who I hope you can and will learn to trust.
My home is yours. I would ask you to stay but that would be impertinent of me and truthfully, my home is not fit for a woman such as you. But should you need company, ask of me. Should you need comfort, open my door.
And know, regardless of where you sleep - that should you need protection, I will be there.
I promise.
He stared. He'd spat out such forward words and felt like he'd bared himself before her. Thrown to the wind, he simply waited her decision, whether it be now or never. He meant every damn word of it.
She wasn't sure what to say really, her emotions were still in a mess, less so however, from the whole ordeal she just faced. None other than Grayell had to deal with the worst of it though, fighting for her life and suffering a leg wound because of it.
She was done crying, what little tears she had left wouldn't even fall, but just stay in the pouch of her lower eye lid.
Maybe it was because she wasn't thinking clearly, or Grayell's words just enhanced the storm in her heart, but her feelings seemed to confuse her more than ever.
The moment caused her magic to act on its own, and the winds were picking up around them both, unstable, not yet a threat to either of them.
Serenity wasn't sure if she was ready to love again, at least not in a romantic sort of way, not until the book with James was good and closed. So long as he lived, the memory of him would stay with her it seemed, as she admitted to herself this night that he wasn't quite gone from her heart and only a fond memory of better days of her youth.
But could she come to love Grayell? The idea didn't seem impossible, though she chuckled in her thoughts thinking that it was just her female emotions getting the best of her. Though that would be cruel to think, he's a finer man than any she has met in her old life and after meeting James.
She looked up at him, straight in the eyes finally, and walked over to wrap her arms around him. A few moments passed by before she was done, thinking how she didn't deserve such a courageous soul as a friend, but was so happy that it was him.
Finishing the long embrace, she grabbed his head and planted a kiss on his cheek, a little longer and more intimate than the one before.
"You're worth more to me than you know Grayell, after all you've done, not a single gold coin in my family's vault is worth your companionship."
She wrapped her arm around his again, "Now, I think its time I walk you home." she smiled brightly.
Grayell slipped his hand about her waist and still hobbling home, rested his cheek on atop her head. The trail through town was short and after she had seen he had what was needed to mend his wound and was prepared to leave, he spoke to her.
Serenity? See you tomorrow.
He winked again, that incorrigible left over from when he was somewhat more reckless with his associations. Ah, what sweet dreams came all the same.